So, I was going to start this post as a weekly vlog, where I'd film a little bit of my day and edit it all together for a quick insight in to what occurred in my world that week. Butttt alas this sorta failed for the first week.
Honestly, being the first week back after
the Christmas and New Year break, I felt like I needed to focus on me and try
some self-care. A lot had happened during the week leading up to Christmas and
I really needed to break free from a lot of things and hide away for most of
last week. I tried to take a break from social media over Christmas, but I
realised how much I needed it. A communication between friends and an escape in
its self that is constantly there, if I need to turn to it. I had a really
conflicting time in my head, where I needed to put my phone/laptop down but
when feeling lonely it was the only thing I felt I could turn too.
Anyway Christmas was very much needed.
Time with my family who I hadn't saw in months, time to catch up with friends,
and also a time to drink loads and eat what I wanted. New Year was spent with
my best friend. I realised how strong our bond is and how in love I really am
with him. I think it was a refresh we needed and a new chapter in our drama
filled love story ;').
But when it came to realising I had to
return to London, my heart froze. I completed freaked myself out in to thinking
my other love affair with London had broken. I genuinely saw myself weighing
out pros and cons to if I really wanted to return, just like an actual break up
I guess. After spending so many days with my family and best friend by my
side, I had to come back to the same mundane routine and being by myself. I had to come back to
reality and I just felt like I needed to settle and get back to that routine slowly and gently for my mental state.
So although my ‘what occurred’ is a little later than planned
(This will be a weekly post on a Sunday evening) I guess the first week back
was always going to be a slow one. Now I am back I've settled in to things, and I’m just excited to really push myself this
year and am looking forward to a lot of new challenges and adventures.
Love
Michaela
xo
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